I wish I could be like Jane or Wye Leng that I could be spiritual all the time. But at times I fail to still do what is right, knowing clearly what the bible says and what God expect from us. Like Paul I oso don't know why I do what I dont want to do and yet still do it.
Like Eve, knowing clearly what God told her not to eat the forbidden fruit yet ate it.Hmm...I am so weak..I am battling to pick up myself every morning..some morning I woke up feeling really misserable and loss about where I am heading to. I loss my passion for people and felt alone in this world...that reminds me of the song "This world is not my home"
I sat in the train this morning, battling in my mind what happened the past few days..and reading the book "Secure in Heart". It was so true that I felt lonely at times..I felt no body is around to care and concern about me. I m only expected to care and concern of another person. Am I wrong to expect as well?
I know he will comfort me...
I can see now, God that your decisions are right;
Your testing has taught me what's true and right
Oh, love me and right now! hold me tight!
just the way you promised
Now comfort me so I can live, really live;
your revelation is the tune I dance to
Psalm 119:75-77
