TemptationSsssss

I can still clearly remember one of the CF camp I have attended this year discusses the topic of temptations. Before the topic starts, the organisor called up my Name.

" Can I have Evelyn, where is Evelyn, Ya Can we have Evelyn to pray for us
before we start. Shock!! Oh ok sure! Thus I went up to the front from my comfort
position leaning on the piller and holding the mic and then utter my Prayer. And
of course like the usuall CCC behaviour and practise Grace shout " come on
Evelyn !!

Yup having all that I'm tempted to say " Ha? Me? er...can you get someone else ( My heart says: You can't do it and you'll utter nonsense ) But nontheless the spirit who guided me to say ( Its ok, all you want to do is to present your praises and worship before God, the spirit will tranceed for you) So it was a Choice.

At times, choices is not that easy..it entice us, it haunts us and it stir our emotions into doing it. Temptations can be both by actions and ignorance. Even we clearly aware that it is wrong or forbidden by God we are still unable to resist it.

It was just so Strong and I am just so weak. Classic example has been laid down by God via Eve who ate the apple from the forbidden tree. Sometimes I wonder, it was just an apple she has so little will power. Yup! it was just an apple, but we are not tempted by the fact it was an apple we are tempted by the fact that our ear is turning to listen to all the false hope and pleasure that we may received as a result of doing a certain action.

Justin, says " TEMPTATIONSSsss" with a silent "s" that when we are tempted we kept it in secret coz it was not something we want others to know. It is shameful to let others know we are tempted. But the fact is because we seldom heard from others about this and we assume we are the only Alien who struggle with it. Rest assured " I am not singling my self out from this guilt " I was just so hard, so tough, and you feels like giving up everytime you fail to make the correct choice. At times it take charge over you even to dictate how you should behave, you keep on sinning and you can't see any hope any more.

At the camp we lay it down on a piece of Paper what temp us in our daily lives. Yup writting it down will be of great help to see how we have been attacked by social conditioning. Belief you me you'll amaze by the numbers of things you are tempted with ( eg: movie; chocolates; video games; sleeping; angry; bitterness; fashion; ludeness; physical intimacy etc etc ) That are just a few. You can try to list all that down on every page and fit in appropriate scripture to tell you that it was wrong.

As a congregation of law students, we want to uphold Res ipsa Luquitor Let the facts speak for it self. We debate on how we can overcome and sets better example in our Christian life to others. If you ask me, it would work by debating nor telling our self that I'll not do it again. Less that you know, that is the first thing you'll do.

I belief in Confession and Accountability. This would be the harder thing to do than to say I'll not do it again. I was reading about this book " Not even a Hint " by Joshua Harris on how to overcome some of the temptations we faced. Like what the book title suggested is that, we shall abstained from anything that will cause us to fall into such temptation. For example if you are struggling with sexuall sins, dont even look at magazines, and ensure you pick the right movie to watch. If you are struggling with cheese cakes temptations dont even walk into any bakery or cakes shops. The key was abstained.

That is one way of overcomming it. Since we are very human, we tend to do the opposite of what we know is right.

Bible says: Romans 10:10 for with the heart a person believes,
resulting in righteousness, and with the mouth he confesses, resulting in salvation.

1 John 1:9 (Whole Chapter) [Ps 32:5; Prov 28:13] If we confess our
sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and [Titus 2:14] to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

I believe non of us are perfect, though we are working hard towards it. Even So, God knows our weaknesses. He is a God who provides ways for us to overcome those guilt and chance for repentance. Otherwise, the word repentance will not even appear in the bible right? I was tought as a young Christian that Godly Sorrow leads to repentance..Is'nt that lovely?

I pray that 2007 will be a great year for each one of us. Do accept the fact that the world is full with temptations, but God has given us his Kingdom so that we can overcome even the impossible.

Love you Guys!! Happy New Year!!

Christmas Feel

Hi Everyone!! How's Christmas thus far? I think I enjoyed the holiday so much. I think this is the only year that I've attended most of the Carolling session. I'm so excited to watch the song leaders sing those Christmas Carols and it really brings alot of joy and worship of Christ Birth and purpose for this world. I had a great time with the Twins ( Pui Woon and Pui Cheng) and Shiau Fong on the first nite in KLCC. They are just a bunch of really fun people to be with and get inspired on.

On the 24th nite, I was in the church doing decoration on the Christmas tree and it was just so fun playing around with the gold dust and laughing at all the pictures we hang on the Christmas tree. I'm so exhausted the following day but it was still real Christmas feel to me. Church service was awesome!! I just loved the sermon and Vincent had definitely done a real great Job. Christmas is about Giving and Loving!! yup, to Love is to give!!

And finally 25th a day with my Boyfriend! Dennon say " Fuyoh!! Marathon date! We dated from 12:30pm till 10:30pm. I really enjoy the time with him and the time just flies without us realising it. It make it even harder to say good bye. Nevertheless it was just so wonderful to be around with him. Most wonderful gift I had this year is to have quality time with you!!

Next round of party at home, watching the video clip about Aaron proposal.Wow!! Awesome, non stop great news from Heaven! Finally another couple is getting married! Congratulations guys hope you have a wonderful moment ahead settling down for greater things.

I had enough of marathons and here I come my baby my Bed my pillow my comforter and ZZzzzzzZZzz...26th !! Its Boxing day!! I'm unwrapping all the gift and I got a handbag from Shiau Fong! Oh my God!! It was marvellous! I love it so much thank you! thank you! thank you!

and thus Christmas is over! I'm sitting down reflecting and thinking about my journey next year. How should I go about? What is the thing I want to see, What are the things I need to change and what will life be like after graduating ? I'm looking forward...

The Condition of My Heart

Hmm..very difficult topic to talk about. Nonetheless it still need pivotal considerations. Honestly I'm just too tired to do anything..Maybe I have used up all my energy to think of the unnecessary(troubles) and spent too little time to think of what is more essential.

Tonite I hope I can leave everything aside to spent time with God and do deal with my heart for him again. Saturday woman's class was great! A very humbling message about Naomi and it thought me that the cost of being a disciple also includes making a turning point decision when the direction we thought seems to be right in the very beginning but has became otherwise.

Do you know that Bitterness can be uprooted by Self Denial ?
When you deny the fact that you are hurt and give in to assumption and justification leads to distrust and bad attitudes and the com posit of all that will lead to Bitterness.

Ya it is so true! This was a good example: During a fellowship with the group of leaders discussing about our up-coming Christmas Bible talk a conversation was heated up with a slight argument over a simple question. It was just so ugly to think of the way we communicate to one another, we attack and argue over small matters.

The point is, God allow us as disciple to apologize, seek for clarification, tell people how we felt, relying on his words and seek for forgiveness. But more often than not, we seek for our rights, justification, and want the other person to bow down to us. Thus, Love have no basis on this situation and there is no mercy which leads to unhappiness and keeping of junks of discouragement and unsattisfaction in our hearts.

I definitely wanted to grow in my patients and Love towards people as I was given much mercy in my weaknesses. Who can bear if God were to punished us according to our records of sins. Before I call it a year, I really wanted to start anew, leaving the past behind, asking God for forgiveness and to grow to be a better person for God and people around me.

Though, my heart is weak but I know he'll never leave me nor forsake me in any circumstances. Hold on my precious friends, fight on, cheer up and gear up for Covenant renewal...

Let's hold each other hands to walk through this year with no regrets!

Love you all!!

you are down within and yet never give up

Irene says:

if at all i want to give a title for your blog today....dear fren, take courage in everything you do, god is for us and that for sure. Have a blessed christmas and feel it...its within you!!

Merry christmas my dear fren.

In life there are just too many things to be discourage about. While I'm reading the content of my blog I can actually observe my emotions go ups and down. The great things is to have a group of great friends who will be there in times of need. Probably one who are able to understand at least.

So if you are tired, overwhelmed and bored with the things around you including me. Dont worry, I'll just sit right there. I'll continue to do my part to love you but if my Love is too much and it overwhelmes you, just ignore me I'll surender it and I will not say any words anymore.

I'm down within and yet never give up! How's Christmas going to be? I dont know, but the man who have been faithfully Love deserve the best of our Love.

Surrender All

Exam Dilemma

Irene : for your info i dah baca corporate personality...here and there.

Eve : tonite I study Charge, We prepare Juris and Company only nak for exam?

Irene : Tak Boleh promise

Eve : ha? Meaning ade chance tak ambik exam?

Irene : adelah...ingin nak sit for company & juris
...tetapiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

Eve : TETAPI.............................? EXCEPTION APE?

Irene : exceptions:

s1(a) if you are not ready, don't waste your time by sitting in the college
and wasting college electricity; ink and paper;

s1(b) if you got some other better things to do; do that than sitting for mock;

s1(c) mock is for only smart people;

s1(d) mock is a mockery

Eve : oi...only exception 1a) and 1d) apply to me woh...

Irene : its ok... you have exceptions...you can go now

Eve : Hahahahahaha...

Throw the dice then decide...mentally challenging....tired tired tired....

ahhhhhhh