Hmm..very difficult topic to talk about. Nonetheless it still need pivotal considerations. Honestly I'm just too tired to do anything..Maybe I have used up all my energy to think of the unnecessary(troubles) and spent too little time to think of what is more essential.
Tonite I hope I can leave everything aside to spent time with God and do deal with my heart for him again. Saturday woman's class was great! A very humbling message about Naomi and it thought me that the cost of being a disciple also includes making a turning point decision when the direction we thought seems to be right in the very beginning but has became otherwise.
Do you know that Bitterness can be uprooted by Self Denial ?
When you deny the fact that you are hurt and give in to assumption and justification leads to distrust and bad attitudes and the com posit of all that will lead to Bitterness.
Ya it is so true! This was a good example: During a fellowship with the group of leaders discussing about our up-coming Christmas Bible talk a conversation was heated up with a slight argument over a simple question. It was just so ugly to think of the way we communicate to one another, we attack and argue over small matters.
The point is, God allow us as disciple to apologize, seek for clarification, tell people how we felt, relying on his words and seek for forgiveness. But more often than not, we seek for our rights, justification, and want the other person to bow down to us. Thus, Love have no basis on this situation and there is no mercy which leads to unhappiness and keeping of junks of discouragement and unsattisfaction in our hearts.
I definitely wanted to grow in my patients and Love towards people as I was given much mercy in my weaknesses. Who can bear if God were to punished us according to our records of sins. Before I call it a year, I really wanted to start anew, leaving the past behind, asking God for forgiveness and to grow to be a better person for God and people around me.
Though, my heart is weak but I know he'll never leave me nor forsake me in any circumstances. Hold on my precious friends, fight on, cheer up and gear up for Covenant renewal...
Let's hold each other hands to walk through this year with no regrets!
Love you all!!
