I SURRENDER ALL

Just some updates about my holiday thus far. I belief this year is the most fruitful Holiday I ever had. Since most of the time of the year I was bog up with studies, studies, and studies, work and study, and study and work...I'll indulge my self in the 3 months holiday to do everything I want which I was not able to do during the rest of the year.

Can you believe it? I have'nt even watch any of the series of "The Lord of The Rings", no Spiderman, no Davinci Code and you name it all the latest movie in the Cinema.. and ironically I did'nt even had a chance to watch that during the holiday...( Ji Wei :- Thanks for the book, I hope I can finish reading it ASAP )

Sometimes I felt I'm loosing touch with the world, so like many of the smart and yet not too smart people I'll ask them for the latest and most updated news...and I'll always seems to know alot yet very little conviction..

So year past by without much knowledge of what is happening around ( You can call me ignorant ) and every year I'll make the same pledge to God that If I pass my exam I'll work real hard for him and shine in my studies...Yet years passing by forgetting what I say...

mmm....integrity...Yes...taking up responsibility and have integrity. Result is coming out in real time and I'll have to face another level of stress for 2 weeks...anxious and very anxious...

The ATC's student were extremely anxious, I have been receiving sms, emails, MSN and snail mail about the up comming results....the level of stress waiting for results was like having to wait for an operation in the Operation room there is only a chances of 50% survival...depending on the doctor who operates you...Oh God I pray that the examiner have mercy on me...

Not that I can't face failure in life, but the failure causes too much of hassle... re-studying, re-taking, money spending, time consuming, phobia, stress, pimples...ah...Killing my cells...and soon after that I'll expose to Permative Vegetative state ( PVS ) and brain damage...

ok Pray Pray...Grace piece of advice ( Jeremiah 29:11 :- For God has a plan for you )
So even my plan were not his plan...I surender...Pray Pray...Dennon say ( Whatever will come will come...be surrender...)...ok ok pray pray...Honey said "I'll pray hard 4 ur surrender heart..ok ok pray pray...Shiau Fong said...I understand how you felt...

hm... "Surrender" dictionary defination

To relinquish possession or control of to another because of demand or compulsion.
To give up in favor of another.

Wow.. To relinquish possession...I suppose I have misplaced my priority again....Lets make it a deal I'll surender all for the sake of his glory and righteousness and whatever it is I'll Surender...God works for the best for those who love him..

2 more weeks holiday and I'm re-charge for my final semester and when I graduate I'll look back with no regrets..whatever in go through in my life as a student may it be an encouragement for those who are facing the things I face...Afterall it was a wonderfull process..( Failure and Victory comes Hand in Hand )

So for now...Enjoy!!

May God Bless for those who had work hard. All the Best for Results..Also for those who are taking ACCA ( Shan and Geok San )

Love,
ME