TemptationSsssss

I can still clearly remember one of the CF camp I have attended this year discusses the topic of temptations. Before the topic starts, the organisor called up my Name.

" Can I have Evelyn, where is Evelyn, Ya Can we have Evelyn to pray for us
before we start. Shock!! Oh ok sure! Thus I went up to the front from my comfort
position leaning on the piller and holding the mic and then utter my Prayer. And
of course like the usuall CCC behaviour and practise Grace shout " come on
Evelyn !!

Yup having all that I'm tempted to say " Ha? Me? er...can you get someone else ( My heart says: You can't do it and you'll utter nonsense ) But nontheless the spirit who guided me to say ( Its ok, all you want to do is to present your praises and worship before God, the spirit will tranceed for you) So it was a Choice.

At times, choices is not that easy..it entice us, it haunts us and it stir our emotions into doing it. Temptations can be both by actions and ignorance. Even we clearly aware that it is wrong or forbidden by God we are still unable to resist it.

It was just so Strong and I am just so weak. Classic example has been laid down by God via Eve who ate the apple from the forbidden tree. Sometimes I wonder, it was just an apple she has so little will power. Yup! it was just an apple, but we are not tempted by the fact it was an apple we are tempted by the fact that our ear is turning to listen to all the false hope and pleasure that we may received as a result of doing a certain action.

Justin, says " TEMPTATIONSSsss" with a silent "s" that when we are tempted we kept it in secret coz it was not something we want others to know. It is shameful to let others know we are tempted. But the fact is because we seldom heard from others about this and we assume we are the only Alien who struggle with it. Rest assured " I am not singling my self out from this guilt " I was just so hard, so tough, and you feels like giving up everytime you fail to make the correct choice. At times it take charge over you even to dictate how you should behave, you keep on sinning and you can't see any hope any more.

At the camp we lay it down on a piece of Paper what temp us in our daily lives. Yup writting it down will be of great help to see how we have been attacked by social conditioning. Belief you me you'll amaze by the numbers of things you are tempted with ( eg: movie; chocolates; video games; sleeping; angry; bitterness; fashion; ludeness; physical intimacy etc etc ) That are just a few. You can try to list all that down on every page and fit in appropriate scripture to tell you that it was wrong.

As a congregation of law students, we want to uphold Res ipsa Luquitor Let the facts speak for it self. We debate on how we can overcome and sets better example in our Christian life to others. If you ask me, it would work by debating nor telling our self that I'll not do it again. Less that you know, that is the first thing you'll do.

I belief in Confession and Accountability. This would be the harder thing to do than to say I'll not do it again. I was reading about this book " Not even a Hint " by Joshua Harris on how to overcome some of the temptations we faced. Like what the book title suggested is that, we shall abstained from anything that will cause us to fall into such temptation. For example if you are struggling with sexuall sins, dont even look at magazines, and ensure you pick the right movie to watch. If you are struggling with cheese cakes temptations dont even walk into any bakery or cakes shops. The key was abstained.

That is one way of overcomming it. Since we are very human, we tend to do the opposite of what we know is right.

Bible says: Romans 10:10 for with the heart a person believes,
resulting in righteousness, and with the mouth he confesses, resulting in salvation.

1 John 1:9 (Whole Chapter) [Ps 32:5; Prov 28:13] If we confess our
sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and [Titus 2:14] to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

I believe non of us are perfect, though we are working hard towards it. Even So, God knows our weaknesses. He is a God who provides ways for us to overcome those guilt and chance for repentance. Otherwise, the word repentance will not even appear in the bible right? I was tought as a young Christian that Godly Sorrow leads to repentance..Is'nt that lovely?

I pray that 2007 will be a great year for each one of us. Do accept the fact that the world is full with temptations, but God has given us his Kingdom so that we can overcome even the impossible.

Love you Guys!! Happy New Year!!

Christmas Feel

Hi Everyone!! How's Christmas thus far? I think I enjoyed the holiday so much. I think this is the only year that I've attended most of the Carolling session. I'm so excited to watch the song leaders sing those Christmas Carols and it really brings alot of joy and worship of Christ Birth and purpose for this world. I had a great time with the Twins ( Pui Woon and Pui Cheng) and Shiau Fong on the first nite in KLCC. They are just a bunch of really fun people to be with and get inspired on.

On the 24th nite, I was in the church doing decoration on the Christmas tree and it was just so fun playing around with the gold dust and laughing at all the pictures we hang on the Christmas tree. I'm so exhausted the following day but it was still real Christmas feel to me. Church service was awesome!! I just loved the sermon and Vincent had definitely done a real great Job. Christmas is about Giving and Loving!! yup, to Love is to give!!

And finally 25th a day with my Boyfriend! Dennon say " Fuyoh!! Marathon date! We dated from 12:30pm till 10:30pm. I really enjoy the time with him and the time just flies without us realising it. It make it even harder to say good bye. Nevertheless it was just so wonderful to be around with him. Most wonderful gift I had this year is to have quality time with you!!

Next round of party at home, watching the video clip about Aaron proposal.Wow!! Awesome, non stop great news from Heaven! Finally another couple is getting married! Congratulations guys hope you have a wonderful moment ahead settling down for greater things.

I had enough of marathons and here I come my baby my Bed my pillow my comforter and ZZzzzzzZZzz...26th !! Its Boxing day!! I'm unwrapping all the gift and I got a handbag from Shiau Fong! Oh my God!! It was marvellous! I love it so much thank you! thank you! thank you!

and thus Christmas is over! I'm sitting down reflecting and thinking about my journey next year. How should I go about? What is the thing I want to see, What are the things I need to change and what will life be like after graduating ? I'm looking forward...

The Condition of My Heart

Hmm..very difficult topic to talk about. Nonetheless it still need pivotal considerations. Honestly I'm just too tired to do anything..Maybe I have used up all my energy to think of the unnecessary(troubles) and spent too little time to think of what is more essential.

Tonite I hope I can leave everything aside to spent time with God and do deal with my heart for him again. Saturday woman's class was great! A very humbling message about Naomi and it thought me that the cost of being a disciple also includes making a turning point decision when the direction we thought seems to be right in the very beginning but has became otherwise.

Do you know that Bitterness can be uprooted by Self Denial ?
When you deny the fact that you are hurt and give in to assumption and justification leads to distrust and bad attitudes and the com posit of all that will lead to Bitterness.

Ya it is so true! This was a good example: During a fellowship with the group of leaders discussing about our up-coming Christmas Bible talk a conversation was heated up with a slight argument over a simple question. It was just so ugly to think of the way we communicate to one another, we attack and argue over small matters.

The point is, God allow us as disciple to apologize, seek for clarification, tell people how we felt, relying on his words and seek for forgiveness. But more often than not, we seek for our rights, justification, and want the other person to bow down to us. Thus, Love have no basis on this situation and there is no mercy which leads to unhappiness and keeping of junks of discouragement and unsattisfaction in our hearts.

I definitely wanted to grow in my patients and Love towards people as I was given much mercy in my weaknesses. Who can bear if God were to punished us according to our records of sins. Before I call it a year, I really wanted to start anew, leaving the past behind, asking God for forgiveness and to grow to be a better person for God and people around me.

Though, my heart is weak but I know he'll never leave me nor forsake me in any circumstances. Hold on my precious friends, fight on, cheer up and gear up for Covenant renewal...

Let's hold each other hands to walk through this year with no regrets!

Love you all!!

you are down within and yet never give up

Irene says:

if at all i want to give a title for your blog today....dear fren, take courage in everything you do, god is for us and that for sure. Have a blessed christmas and feel it...its within you!!

Merry christmas my dear fren.

In life there are just too many things to be discourage about. While I'm reading the content of my blog I can actually observe my emotions go ups and down. The great things is to have a group of great friends who will be there in times of need. Probably one who are able to understand at least.

So if you are tired, overwhelmed and bored with the things around you including me. Dont worry, I'll just sit right there. I'll continue to do my part to love you but if my Love is too much and it overwhelmes you, just ignore me I'll surender it and I will not say any words anymore.

I'm down within and yet never give up! How's Christmas going to be? I dont know, but the man who have been faithfully Love deserve the best of our Love.

Surrender All

Exam Dilemma

Irene : for your info i dah baca corporate personality...here and there.

Eve : tonite I study Charge, We prepare Juris and Company only nak for exam?

Irene : Tak Boleh promise

Eve : ha? Meaning ade chance tak ambik exam?

Irene : adelah...ingin nak sit for company & juris
...tetapiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

Eve : TETAPI.............................? EXCEPTION APE?

Irene : exceptions:

s1(a) if you are not ready, don't waste your time by sitting in the college
and wasting college electricity; ink and paper;

s1(b) if you got some other better things to do; do that than sitting for mock;

s1(c) mock is for only smart people;

s1(d) mock is a mockery

Eve : oi...only exception 1a) and 1d) apply to me woh...

Irene : its ok... you have exceptions...you can go now

Eve : Hahahahahaha...

Throw the dice then decide...mentally challenging....tired tired tired....

ahhhhhhh

Part 2 Class

Part 1 of Irene:

Last nite after class, Me and Irene was planning our big Saturday mission. She was emailing me to annoyed me before class started. So this is what she says:

Besides Ponteng Class so how's our Plan?

....Since I'm a good student as Mr Eltan always says...My answer: " ha? I where got say ponteng class? I say go for mission only mah...." hahahahhaa...ok since my reputation is more important :- Irene discourage :P

Lesson 1 : Don't ask for it!!!

Part 2 of Shawn:

He wink at me when I saw him in class...I almost fall from my chair....break time 1st session : He hehehehehehe Evelyn got bring notes ah? then got buy books ah...how's company statute you got buy ah? and finally....can help me buy ah...bring on Sunday...appreciate you so much....

And I goes: hehehehhee, please sms me the notes you want on which date of lectures and I'll bring it..then Shawn says oh ok ok sure sure I am most happy to do that. hahahahahaha....he is making me laugh too much in class...Irene please take care of him.

Lesson 2 : If you get friends like Shawn make sure you get him to buy lunch...

Part 3 of Evelyn:

Company Law..Mr Felix ....oh my favourite lecture...Is'nt he cute? His jokes was fantastic...( This is to irritate Irene in Class ) Otherwise she'll be so bored of life hahahhahahaha before Mr Suresh comit homicide I shall appologize. Ok Irene: Like how Hart attack Austin I will have more grace, Please forgive me for speaking the Truth...:P

Adios! Enjoy Class for another 3 weeks and Christmas we Come!!

My Favourite Thing(s)

Do you know this Song in the "Sound of Music"? I have always love the movie, I guess I've been watching it for more than 10 times in my life time. I can almost remember all the songs in that movie.

The lyrics goes : When you feel sad think of your fav things and you will not feel so bad

Last week, someone goes : Eve, what happen? and I goes: Ya why what's wrong! and she goes oh my Gosh! you put on so much...ha? errrrr....then goes the second and the third and the fourth and finally Mrs Neighbour saw me last nite after my work..Hi Aunty..She: Hi! come we chat awhile, so standing outside the door she was indirectly talking about her sister and finally it relates to me :( Oh my God! I'm so disturb...

I was infront of the mirror and it goes: Honey, you put on weigh ( Critical!!!) Red light....stress stress!! sweat sweat!!

Christmas, Banquet, Chinese New Year...oh God! please help...

Got to be so determined, weigh management...

End of Another Chapter Page 365

Yup! 1 month or so to call it a year. I never had thought that I'm 3 years away from 2010 and I'll be so proud if I were to hit that year and made a life changing testimony then.

When I was in A-level which I always felt I am, I was dreaming away of 2010 and there is Evelyn at her highest peak. But who can tell right what will happened then? In a glimpse of time God would have change my plan in totality. So after years of becoming a disciple I learned to Surrender to God's Will for me.

As for Shina, she had learned that Law might not be what God intended for her but nonetheless it was a great stepping stone in her future Career. Last Bible talk, I was rather inspired by a simple message of Moving Forward.

Moving forward? It has always been a tough time to forget the past, whenever people talk about it I'll goes: Don't remind me and lets not even mentioned about it! But nevertheless it is unavoidable. So I got to really leave my result behind and start focusing on the finishing line of my race.

Paul says:

I donÂ’t mean to say that I have already achieved these things or that I have already reached perfection. But I press on to possess that perfection for which Christ Jesus first possessed me

Ya it is true, that I have not or might not have achieve my dream in my worldly sense but I trust the attitude that always counts. If God were to evaluate me based on my achievement I would be a darn failure, By God's grace that he searches our heart in everything we do in life that we are able to pressed on.

Year is ending and everyone is so excited for Christmas and New Year, I also wanted to end this year great! Let's then call it a year and continue to work on our weaknesses and polish up those strength.

The saying goes : When we are consistent enough, even the world will follow ourrhythmm

God Bless!

This is my story this is my song...lalalallala :)

Happiness Lies in The Eyes of Believers

TLYER SAID : HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYCE!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!

Emotion

This word was defined as

any strong agitation of the feelings actuated by experiencing love, hate, fear, etc., and usually accompanied by certain physiological changes, as increased heartbeat or respiration, and often overt manifestation, as crying or shaking.

We were talking about the case where the Mongolian model was killed as a result of fear that the wife would have known about the accused relationship with her and an escape of threat. The news led us to believe that his motive of killing was as a result of that. The conclussion therefore made that " He is a murderer who have no feelings"

Looking it in another view is that how can a man with more than half a brain kill someone with that simple reason? So I thought, it could also happened that the accused was in an emotional state that ed him to do what he did ( Which in Law called Automatism: A sudden an temporary loss of control). But since the verdict has not been concluded we shall have a more liberal view as to why the murder took place.

Emotion does play a pivotal role in our life and we can easily be affected by another human being, peer pressure and circumstances. When there is no control, the result would be one of an unpredictable one. Even the bible speaks that Our heart is deceitful above all things who can understand it?

We are definately gratefull that we have God to be the leader and guidance in our life so that we would understand our emotions and striving to live by the spirit.

Meanwhile, I'm emotional now...got to go for nite class :( :P

You are Special

This morning when I wakened
And saw the sun above,
I softly said, "Good morning, Lord,
Bless everyone I love."

Right away I thought of you.
And said a loving prayer,
That He would bless you specially,
And keep you free from care.

I thought of all the happiness
A day could hold in store,
I wished it all for you because
No one deserves it more.

Don't Quit

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must but don't quit.

Little is queer with it's twist and turns,
as everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turn about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out,
Dont give up, though the pace seems slow,
You might succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor's cup.
And he learned too late, when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you can never tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit.

WHY IT HAS TO BE THIS WAY?

The weather is so unreliable at this time of the year that you really can’t pack away all your problems.

One day it’s sunny and you think you’re in the clear and the next gloom has descended again. Reminds me of that old English saying

“Ne’er cast a clout ’til May be out”

(Clout is an Old English word for clothing, and the saying was a reminder not to be too quick to get rid of the winter woollies before the chilly days of May were over)

And the way recent rainy days have gone here in my country, the shade might as well stay around all year…

Emotionally un stable...it is a Cranky day...........

Christmas Isn't Christmas" - Music by Jimmy & Carol Owens - Lyrics by Carol Owens

Christmas isn't Christmas till it happens in your heart
Somewhere deep inside you is where Christmas really starts
So give your heart to Jesus, you'll discover when you do
That it's Christmas, really Christmas for you

Jesus brings warmth like a winter fire
A light like a candle's glow
He's waiting now to come inside
As He did so long ago

Jesus brings gifts of truth and life
And makes them bloom and grow
So welcome Him with a song of joy
And when He comes you'll know

That Christmas really Christmas
Christmas really Christmas
Christmas really Christmas for you

SUNDAY CLASS

I saw Shawn sitting in front of me and I gave him a tap...and teasingly says: Wow you came for class "He pretend to be surprise and said " Ops I suppose to be in church" hahahaha....so I thought, ya...we suppose to be in church what are we doing here on Sunday morning ;)

Yesterday I had a terrible headache in class and I lean on Irene to manja manja with her lah...I say "Irene I got headache cannot concentrate in class...and Mr Amerjit walk in and gave me a real dose of injection that I felt like fainting. Wah...so difficult to understand....what is " Hart talking about? " Seems like Japanese...

Ringggggg.......It's times up! why is he keep on talking...Irene...ask him to stop I need a break...So he has took up 15minutes extra...yeah...run run run away from Juris...headache headache...

Shawn: He he...." Evelyn can I borrow your notes ah? Last week Sunday and Tuesday SPS..So I say: Sure Sure..finding for notes...ops...don't have...then Shawn says: I give you confident you can find it one...find find properly...ok ok " NAH here you are" See I gave you confident you sure can find it one...

Next time be like me Shawn said: 2 hours do filling and study 30 minutes...hahahhaa " Shawn got an over dose of Jurisprudence...so I beg to agree that my notes is a mess...

Then comes Company Law...All the student were complaining..." Mr Felix is making silly Jokes" not " FARNIE " at all....but you know what? " Shawn is laughing everytime Mr Felix crack those lame jokes ( hahahhahahah ). So Irene poke him from behind and said" Very funny" and he turn and said...He's so good....I shake my head in disbelief...wa hahahahhaa...Beh Tahan

and finally, the Finale...The 1st Class student Amy Ai and now our lecture for Succession,....Shawn fell asleep in class ZzzzzZZzzzzz....Teruk nyeeeeeeeeeee........
We are all so tired and our brain have stop functioning when Ms Amy dictating the Revocation of a will when a person Re-married. Who cares? Question backfires : THE EXAMINERS!! ok ok...listen listen...

Sunday Class was real exciting with Shawn hahahahaha....God blessed the day!!

Humps on The Road

Ok I'm not going to tell what happened to me last Saturday :) Such a mishaps hahahahahha. Whenever I thought of it...I just can't stop laughing about the event that took place. Ya I thought may be I should write about the humps on the road...since it struck me twice in a week...what a mishaps...

The year is ending and Wednesday was a slight reminder that the year has gone by and a new resolution will again take its place. I have been so much blessed this year from getting steady to mum bible study to building new friendship and passing of exams...and sometimes I can feel that it is too good to be true.

I would have walk blindly ignoring much of God's blessing and enjoying the fact of what he has done. Then like my Sat mishaps and when I'm not careful enough I'll slip and fall. It will be worse if it right smack on my face and I'll have cuts every where and I then requires special attention and time to heal.

I remembered all this blessing was as a result of God's answer to my prayer. I've prayed and cry real hard during the hardest time. Faith is something I struggle and even to believe it would happened. Sisters spending ample time with me sharing of faith and God's great wonders. All I could only say " You don't understand you'll never be able to relate of what I am going through.

Somehow when I look back, I'm just so grateful for all the advice, all the love, all the challenge and the molding part in my christian life. So that I shall not boast about what I have done but by God's grace that he shall be praised.

So when there is a humps is not a bad signed. It is rather a good one, you'll never knew when God is going to encourage you..maybe this time he misses you and want you to continually give him attention and love him and when the proper time came, he'll give you gift that you'll never expect.

Humps on the road was just an excitement of our jouney and when the challenges passes, we'll see beutiful things a head....

Great Friday everyone!!! enjoy your weekend and I'll have mine " Red Date " sounded wierd...

Love,
Eve

The Hit does not feels like Love

Like all would have known "God has provide free water supply last nite" So that all the soil on the land could now get enough water and the Bird in the sky can have a free shower he he he hehehe :P. And for me rain has gave me a shivering nite in class and a free lift home. Thank you Chew Wan :)

I'm exhausted after the late nite class.....tonite another hit of Jurisprudential class. So Stress with the speed of lectures in the special class. Even Esther was surprised that special class has already started.

While I was fellowshipping with the sis last nite she say " So poor that men working until this time" it is already past 10 and it was heavy rain. So I answer " I guess he has accepted the fate". Then I wonder...wow!! God is humbling me...and I kept quiet.. and I wonder...such an awesome man!! His wife must be waiting for him at home and preparing him dinner...and his children will eagerly work hard in their studies for his dad has given his very best for work.

hmm..How if it was the contrary to this? What I have is much more compared to this man...Even Daniel ask me how can the group encourage me and the rest of the sis while we are having a challenging schedule. I guess I have enough and I do not need anything more.

2Corinthians 4: 8-9
We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; 9persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.

Grateful I am....

We Are The Reason

As little children we would dream of
Christmas morn and all the gifts and toys
we knew we'd find,
but we never realised a baby born one blessed
night gave us the greatest gift of our lives.

We are the reason that He gave His life,
We are the reason that He suffered and died,
to a world that was lost, He gave all He could
give to show us the reason to live.

As the years go by we learned more
about gifts, giving of ourselves
and what that means.
On a dark and cloudy day a man hung crying
in the rain because of love, because of love.

I've finally found a reason for living,
it's in giving every part of my heart to Him,
In all that I do, every word that I say,
I'll be giving my all just for Him, for Him.

And we are the reason that He gave His life,
We are the reason that He suffered and died,
to a world that was lost,
He gave all He could give,
to show us the reason to live.

He is my reason to live.

STUDY STUDY STUDY

I must confess, I have been so ill discipline this time round. I've Bomed almost all of my promise everyday. There goes the saying " What I should do I don't do and what I should'nt do all I did...

So dissappointed with myself, I am facing a at least 3B's this year yet the spirit to work towards that was far far behind. I definately need some accountability and planning on my studies so that my days will not go in Vain.

Mock exam has been scheduled on 18,19,20,21 December 06. 6.15pm local time ;). So I have told Irene my plan for this year mock exam coverage. Please help me to get back to my study mood and "DO HURL INSULT AT ME IF I DON'T" So that I will take it seriously.

I shall be back to my all times favourite British Council.

Here's a summary of my Weekly Schedule:-

Monday : Sit Debrina BB Study unless there is a replacement to British Council
Tuesday : Study day British Council
Wednesday : Class and Church
Thursday : Christine BB Study
Friday : Group unless hang out to BC
Sat : Class, study in Library & Date
Sunday: Church,Class, Study

Pls keep me accountable Everyone.

Love,
Eve

Stuck in between the Earth

Sometimes things are just too difficult. Stuck in between things and facing choice and trials of many kinds. Between selfishness and selflessness, between worldliness and holiness, between wickedness and Righteousness and on and on...

This two weeks was really a testing of faith in the office. Case after case that my superior require me to tell lies. I thought to my self why is this thing happen again? It was not something new yet it was just so difficult everytime.

Why out of many she choose me? Oh God why you put me in situation like this? I remain silent and ignore her.

So Hannah advice me to tell her and uphold what is right. Definately in my heart I do not want to offend her nor my colleugue. Not doing so, I will then offend God. oh dear...battling in my heart, God can you make it easier?

No make a stand! What Kind of disciple are YOU? What can men do to you? ok ok I finally surrender and decided to talk to them on this. I shall not compromise for the sake of how they felt.

QT God says:

1 Peter 1:6-7

6In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. 7These have come so that your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.

So I decided to take up the courage to talk to them about this and shall make it clear to them what I believe. As expected nothing good will turn up, they reason that when we are stuck in between things we have no choice but to tell lies and it is not too big a sin afterall. I told them " I'm sorry but this is what I believe and I hope you guys understand"

Today office look so gloomy, maybe my mood also affected when people start to label me oh she is holy, we shall not say this or that it is against her. Oh better don't say that it is so bad...and for a moment I felt I am an Alien in the office.

Mat 5:11 "Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me.

Mat 5:12 REJOICE and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.

Hmm...Be happy then for my God is bigger than any of my troubles!!!!

Love,
Eve

Pillow Talk

She ask, Eve you like soft pillow? So I replied er...my pillow is made of feathers you know. She ask again in disbelieve, what? Where you get that? There must be alot who have sacrifice for your comfort. I tot not comfortable actually I wanted a new one, just that it has follow me throughout so I shall keep it. My answer then therefore, my brother bought it I was given the privilege to use it :)

What in the world " nothing better to debate but pillows? " that is sisters main topic of the day to come up to their daily words quota, what you wear, what you use, what is the price, where you get it etc etc...

Not my intention to blog about pillows but I can't help it, that now I'm thinking of how they actually process that pillow oh Gosh. I want a new one...

So I can put it right in place and start reflecting about the holiday. Then I shall update my blog but meanwhile please wait k :) If someone were to get me a new one I shall progress faster ;)he he

How much does it Cost!

Luke 14:25-40:

The Cost of Being a Disciple
25Large crowds were traveling with Jesus, and turning to them he said: 26"If anyone comes to me and does not hate his father and mother, his wife and children, his brothers and sisters—yes, even his own life—he cannot be my disciple. 27And anyone who does not carry his cross and follow me cannot be my disciple.

28"Suppose one of you wants to build a tower. Will he not first sit down and estimate the cost to see if he has enough money to complete it? 29For if he lays the foundation and is not able to finish it, everyone who sees it will ridicule him, 30saying, 'This fellow began to build and was not able to finish.'

31"Or suppose a king is about to go to war against another king. Will he not first sit down and consider whether he is able with ten thousand men to oppose the one coming against him with twenty thousand? 32If he is not able, he will send a delegation while the other is still a long way off and will ask for terms of peace. 33In the same way, any of you who does not give up everything he has cannot be my disciple.

34"Salt is good, but if it loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? 35It is fit neither for the soil nor for the manure pile; it is thrown out.
"He who has ears to hear, let him hear."

What you think it cost to be a disciple?
Relationship?
Desire?
Renounce Possession?

Updates

weeky update :) weekly? or how?

Work is like usuall nothing much to do....sitting too much is no good...so must walk to the Loo every hour to do reflections..Opss look at the mirror lah....

So I'm taking sometime to read my Advance GTG memory scripture. I'll be typing and typing and re typing for God sake. Meanwhile it was a real good excercise for the Brain cum the Heart. So many to go.....

example: Colossians 2:8 See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the basic principles of this world rather than on Christ

..Fuh tired men.... As for the assignment I completed mine just looking for a printer to print it out. Thus, I'm almost done with GTG.

Class? Emm the subject getting bulkier, assignment piling up, physically and mentally oso tired. That does not meant to be an excuse....no excuse for me this year...shall have no Grace. Good News is our night class on Thursday has been approved to be replaced on Saturday morning " Wooohoooo. Thus no more class on Thursday!! Hip Hip Hooray....

But Face the fact tonite class till 9:30pm...I need pain killer. Today Foo Weoi told me very long did'nt see me in college. So sad :( I wish I could be in college all the time as a full timer...but there are reason for everything...So those who have the chance to study full time be grateful and don't complaint.

So its time to say good bye and see you all again in due time.

Adios!

Love lots and lots and lots :)
ME

Good Old Days - By Irene Suresh

Especially for us borned and raised in Malaysia (esp. fond of the memory of the Milo truck coming to school once in a blue moon to give away free packet-chocolate-milk at school!). Miss the good old days - despite its low-tech nature....

For your reading pleasure...some might be true. Hope you will all enjoy reading it. This might bring you back the old memory especially during those school days.....

Signs that you are a 70s' or 80s' baby:
You grew up watching G-Force, He-man, Transformers, Thundercats, Silver Hawk, Woody Woodpecker, Chipmunks and Mickey Mouse. Not to forget Ninja Turtles, Mask, Smurfs and Voltron too.

Girls watched Japanese cartoon like My Little Pony, "Xiao Tian Tian", "Hua
Xian Zi" etc. You grew up brushing your teeth with a mug in primary school after recess time. You squatted by a drain with all your classmates beside you, and brushed
your teeth with a colourful mug. Remember the days when the school nurse, comes with a list for the dentist appointment, the sound of the drilling when your friend has a fill in his tooth. You remember the packets of milk we get in primary school to encourage us to drink more milk. (It cost only 30 cent per pack)

In secondary school, girls go to the library to borrow their favourite romance storybook. In secondary school, girls altered their school skirt to shorten it and guys will go to the school appointed school uniform tailor shop to tailor make their school trousers to the then fashionable "baggy pants"!

During primary school days, the teacher will punish you using a ruler to hit your palm. A bowl of noodles soup cost only 30cent in primary school days. When you were in primary school, girls like to go to the bookshop to buy cute stuff such as animal erasers, various shape sharpeners, colourful notebook etc.

Hankyu Jaya, Yaohan departmental stores used to be a favourite hangout for
families during weekends. In secondary school days, you buy the Bata BM Turbo or Pallas Jazz school shoes. Some guys like to wear those china made ankle high shoes. Some even like to wear those very thick socks with their school shoes. Internet? E-mail? What the hell is that? So you thought a decade or more ago, your friends don't have pagers or handphones in school.

CDs? What's that? Cassette tapes were the norm. Movie tickets used to cost less than $5 last time. The goodies from Mama shop used to be Chickerdis, Mamee , Kum Kum, UFO,
O-Ya, Ding Dang chocolate balls with toys in the box, colourful hard "egg",
"cigerette" bubble gum, KIKI Bubble Gum, pink bottle of bubbles c/w a small tubes with yellow sticks to blow "more lasting" bubbles that you can pop more air in or slam it on.

You never forget 'Ti Kam'. When exams are over, the board games (e.g Monopoly, Donkey, Transportation Comparison Card) & held video games will be all over the class room.Your favourite sound is the bell For it's the homemade ice cream man.
The cream that tops Haagan Dazs! And the other peddler you love is the old lady who sells juicy Muah Chee and thick olden syrup rolled in a balloon the tip of a chopstick.

Another bell is the recess bell, a time to get away from school work and to eat. Another time when there is no bell but all guys will anxiously wait for it...The PJ (Pendidikan Jasmani), PE time (time for football) Your favourite childhood games were playing "guli"(marbles), five stones, five bottle cover, zero-point
t,atching, "Pepsi-Cola one two three" and/or "Police & Sentry"!

The best thirst quencher of all times is the yummy colourful ice tubes you can buy from provision shops for only 10cent. To eat them,break the tab and suck while
holding the freezing tube! All gals have a girl doll/strawberry shortcake/my little pony/pound puppy, while all boys have a soldiers figurine (combat) or a rubber band catapult that shoots folded paper!

Once was the era whereby ice-cream sticks were valuable items, then came the paper aircrafts, chalk fights. Some boys made their own guns from wood, and used 'Bacali' as the bullets. Some even used matches to shoot and burn kids'lanterns during MoonCake Festival. And your favourite holiday was Lunar New Year! New clothes, Ang Pows, shopping, junk food and family outings!

Let's see, the majority of students in universities today were born in 1987
/ 88.... They are called "youth".

For them, they have never heard of the song "We are the World, we are the
Children..." And the "Uptown Girl" they know is by 'West Life' but not 'Billy Joel'.

For them, there have always been only one Germany and only one Vietnam. AIDS exists since they were born.

CD exists since they were born. Michael Jackson is already whitened.John Travolta is always round in shape and they can't imagine how this fat guy could be a god of dance. They believe that Spiderman and Incredible Hulk are just new films. They can never imagine a black and white screen for a computer. They never know what is Atari or 'Game & Watch'. They can't believe a black and white television ever existed and they don't even know how to switch on a TV without a remote control. And they never understand how we can go out without a mobile phone when we were in university...

Let's check if we're getting old...

1. You understand what was written above and you smile.

2. Most of your secondary school friends are getting married.

3. You are always surprised to see small children playing comfortably with
computer.

4. When you see teenagers with mobile phones, you shake your head.

5. You spend less and less time talking on phone with your friends daily.

6. When you meet your old friends from time to time, talking about the good
old days, repeating again and again all funny stories you experienced
together.

7. Lastly, having read this mail, you are thinking of forwarding it to some
other old friends. You think they will like it too.....

Hahaha!.... Yes! We are getting old too...........

Brings back old memories huh?

Cheers to the 70s n 80s babies!!!

She

Do this action : Read slowly, turn your head to 45 degree, blink, look up and did you see a big cloud? Ok here's the story in the cloud.

Like the much repeated, I continue my 9 to 5 routine and go for class. Ops I forgot I have to return the Library Book for Ms ...I dont know her name but anyway I manage to meet Cindy in the Library yesterday ( if you still remember her ) She's a friend of Grace Cham who joint The Magical Moment Single Retreat last two years. We were keeping in touch as friends the senior junior relationship. Sad to say that, but I'll repent and really get into her life again.

Will this be an encouragement? She said: Evelyn I don't think I'm ready to go to church but I will continue reading the bible...

I thought to my self what is the best answer to that. Mmmm I text her back and say, let me know when you are ready to allow God to help you. Her reply: Thank you Eve...I'm like ha? I dunno lah....Help please anyone?

She is such a sweet girl, she gave me a Christmas pack candies and get someone pass it to me. On the pack it note " Merry Christmas Eve...Love, Dee " At that time I really could'nt figure out who gave me that pack. I wonder and when I reach home I'm in deep thoughts as to who is this encouraging person. Maybe a secret admirer huh ;) I tot it was rather cute.

So I put it at the side of the fridge. It has been an encouragement whenever I open my fridge "Merry Chistmas Eve..Love Dee". Counting from the time I received it, it was almost a year back.

I finally discouver this angel when I receive a message from her " How's exam preparation? You have enough rest? Last year you look very tired during the exam I hope you r better prepared this time. All the best! Love..Dee"

oh God! who is this? Taxing her back to Thank her and to updates her that I'm fine with things...by the way " Paiseh" who is that and she said : I'm Cindy...I smile at handphone screen then mum teasingly says: Never one time you don't smile when you received calls and messages.

:) True! Friends are to be treasured. Vincent said: The Blood is on our head to share faith, scary as it may seems but it was true...

The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in vain

By now you can actually guage that my favourite subject for the year would be Jurisprudence. Why? probably is because the beauty of the subject matter. All my time use to discover what was this subject trying to tell me. For I do not know much.

Yup I do not know much and yet the Lord has encourage me by giving me a chance to serve my Sisters in my small group. I had a tough time thinking of what can I do for them and how we can grow together.

However, time just does not permits me to go further. I'm stepping down and shall pass my responsibility over to my new small group leader. I'm learning to understand that my Lord has not put my work in vain and I believe he love each one in my group to give them a better leader who can be there to serve them.

Dennon tought me submission today and the reason to submit. If my Lord is my Shepherd I shall not be in want I shall follow and submit to what he wants me to be. I'm sad that I can't do everything as I wanted to but I'm happy that I can do what the Lord intend for. So by now I'm almost ready to surrender. Almost ready? :) nope I'm ready to surrender for by his will I'm ready to be lead.

Grace said sometimes is good to step down and evaluate where went wrong. Ya for us to do great things we shall be ready to do small things. When I think about my mum about what she had done for the family I often think of the money she saved for my studies, the hardwork of her youth and how she encourages and gave me comfort when I fail in my exam.

Often times I forgot the small thing she did like washing tons of my cloths, cooking and preparing my meals, be a listening ear for me. So definately she is a woman worthy to be praise. Since I'm not called only to do big things, I'm ready to do the smaller one.

Proverbs 31:30:
30Charm is deceptive, and beauty does not last; but a woman who fears the LORD will be greatly praised. 31Reward her for all she has done. Let her deeds publicly declare her praise.

So farewell to Leadership and beginning of servanthood. Thanks also for all the encouragement.

Love,
Eve

Logical Positivism

Yesterday Mr Paul Linus in his Jurisprudential class lecture introduces to us the birth of Legal Logical Positivism in the United Kingdom. Before he go into the subject matter proper he offers us a defination of what positivistism is.

What in the world is this defination for? I'm in the mids of confusion and emotionaly not able to comprehend such a defination. However, there are something real amazing about this area of law. Like everyone else I'm more interested as to who John Austin is than what he wrotes.

So while I'm blogging this you might be more interested as to who am I then what I wrote right? I describe John Austin as a man with no great achievement in life. I would say he failed badly in all things he do " sounded too much like a mocking to his life while he is on earth" I must qualified my self this is by Paul Linus...So sue him for defamation :)

Yup it is true! So believe it or not you can be famous for your failure! He was nevertheless said to be a very intelligent man with great dreams and all his thoughts and work on the jusrisprudential aspect has been paid much tribune too.

Sadly his wife has an affair while he is seriuosly ill, he only manage to keep 5 student in his class and even so, they are now our modern philosopher who critisizes his works. He was called to the bar to serve for his great piece of judicial opinions however, as a result of the depression he has he left the Bar after 5 years. So he is so much so a man with no Career and he was said to be a perfectionist that has never able to achieve his prefection.

So misserable. I thought to my self what has motivate him in going through his life? His wife? No definately not. His Career? Not as well. He ends his life with much sadness and all his scripts of Jurisprudential was then published and was found to be of great deep thoughts. He is a malancholy who has gone to extreme in life, there is no fulfillment and his expression of words has now become a stress for the Law student.

I however were of the opinion that this man is worth to be discover of. Sadden by his life but have wisdom on his words. Don't you feel that in our life only when we are so sad, so directionless, so weak that we see things clearer than ever? I'm not John Austin of course am not a malancholy either. I develope the sence of only God can fill reliance when bad things does happened.

What do you felt?

Achievers

I received this encouragement from Irene. I hope this will be an encouragement for you as well.

Often times we might feel very helpless and hopeless be it in our Career, in our studies, our family, our friends and whatever you want to achieve. There are times you have given your best but you still fail. You fall badly from past experience and now you no longer believe that you can do great.

You believe that " That is God's will for you ". True in a sense that God allow you and I to go through that for us to learn and be a stronger person in return. It is also a process we learn to lean on God's strength instead of our own. Having stated that God does not and never intend for us to fail in life. Especially we are his disciple.

We are to be his living testimony and shall shine no matter what is the result may turn out to be. So in that sense we are battling between shining and failing. Failing does'nt however mean that we can't shine, it is the first step to success, no one go through success without failing. We need to make the first step and God will lead us through the rest.

Of course failling in exam is one of the thing I hated the most, but only from failing I learn to remedy what and where I have gone wrong. I learn to evaluate the time spent and the effort I have put in. I learn to set up small goals and reach my objective, I learn of course to be more prayerful and rely on God. I learn to do the impossible when everyone seems to argue that I am too stubborn.

I see the need of passing my papers more than anyone can feel for me. and now I am writing this as an encouragement for you to believe that you can do all things when God is giving you strength.

So if you are feeling "Blue" dont worry trust me our God will not put you in Shame. He'll give you strength and guidance in whatever you do. We just got to have Faith and it really does able to move mountains.

So I'm now in my finals and I'm going to reap what I sow. I shall leave to God what he thinks best for me. I believe his plan is good, I just pray that I could enter into a firm and work my way up. God never fails those who love him!

Cheers! God Bless

Why People Get Bored?

As I'm writing that title Roger gave me, I felt Boredom part 2. iiiii

ROGER says: hope all the bored ppl in the world will hv hope after read ur blog.

So here is the solution.

1. Bored your friend
Practicals:

enlk81: I'm bored
enlk81: I feel like going home now
enlk81: please tell me story
danielfck: once a upon a time
danielfck: there is a girl who is bored
danielfck: and she kept on bugging everyone with a statement "i am bored" to whoever and everyone online
danielfck: and she bugged
danielfck: and bugged
danielfck: and bugged
danielfck: and she bugged till happily ever after.
danielfck: the end
enlk81: ha hahaha
enlk81: teruk
enlk81: but sadly no one entertains her except for one idiot
enlk81: ops
enlk81: there is good things I learned from Boredom for idiot
enlk81: nevermind
enlk81: Dont want to bug you liao
danielfck: HA?
danielfck: I'M AN IDIOT
danielfck: ?
danielfck: WAH... SO BAD
danielfck: (CRY)
enlk81: h ahahahaha

so first solution is to bug people until they cry : Mission accomplished.

Worse Thing Could Happen

I'm thinking twice to put this up. I might fear my reader or I would gain some attention from them. So I definately in my right mind would think it would be a challenge for you to know I am who I am. I have decided to put this up.

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If I can freely express how I felt I would want to shout out loud and say I'm extremely bored with things. Finally it is out, I'm bored I needed some excitement in life. If I could only put down everything and go somewhere I'll be packing my stuff and spent all my money and then start everything again or at least don't have to worry about all the mess here and schedule to catch. I sometimes felt like a ROBOT everything has been programmed as it is. Since that was so so unrealistic and quite impossible where the mind says go but the heart says stay I have to accept things as it is.

So since I have to face it and can't run away from it, I could only raise my white flag. I'll go for Class, I'll go to church, I'll go for Bible study, I'll go for evangelism, I'll go hang out, I'll go for dates, I'll go to work and do things as it is.

Before you rebuke me. Let me say my last word " I'm bored " I'm in a state that I can't take boredom and routine anymore. You gonna tell me this very word
"Perservere" I've been learning hard to define this and re-define it by the power of reasoning God gave me as what was stated by Thomas Aquinas.

I shall get back to my Jurisprudence assignments before Sunday Class...Oh God...The worse thing could happen is being irresponsible. I definately do not want this, God spare me from all this boredom of writting darn tough essays...

I need some self motivation. I'll read the " Magic book " .......I need some extra boost of drugs to put me to sleep........Before being charged for possession of illegal drugs I shall confess ( Company Law ) is putting me off....Can someone explain this?

Time is Sufficient for Everything

Class has just started for 2 Weeks. At the meantime there are so many things and responsibility on hand that I need to get it done with. Still haven't start studying real hard bit here and there.

I have been traveling quite a bit. Last month I 've been traveling back to Ipoh on the Third week and the Forth week to Johor and to Singapore for a day tour. Arriving Kl and went for date. Then finally the week after result was released.

First week of September to Grandma's place and Start Class on 2nd week of September. Preparing registration fees, sending my result of final PTPTN approval. Last Sunday went back to Ipoh again for a day trip to get my parent's Passport and documents for Canada VISA application, getting my eldest Bro to wire in money and invitation letter for their air tickets. Oh Gosh...!! I need some peace of mind...

So having all that I finally get all things done today.I work till 2pm, run down to look for Alex to print out my Dad's travel itinerary, took out money from ATM and go to the Alliance Bank to prepare Bank Draft for Canadian High Commission VISA fees. Stop a cab to Canada Embassy submit my Parent's Visa application and back to office at 3.30pm. Amazing! I'm getting all things done in 2hours.

So I'm taking a breather now and having my lunch in the office and chatting with my Boss. Tonite have to go home and prepare for tomorrow class and work out the study method for Chui Leng's Law paper for her. Hopefully if class finishes early I can go to church to pass her syllabus back to her.

So when I go to rest tonite I got to get back on my knees to Thank God for everything, every solution, every prayer answered, every challenges, every blessing. He've definitely provide sufficiently for me.

1 Chronicles 16:11 [Ps 24:6]Seek the LORD and His strength;Seek His face continually.

10:15 Sunday Morning

Surprise!

What Surprise? It came to my surprise that I'm now blogging, not going to church nor for class. Basically, I attended the Kids Kingdom Service in my Church this morning and here I am in college blogging while waiting for Irene and going for our lectures.

I remembered i our Camp Cameron last year we had a debate as to Church VS Class. I had stood so firmed my ground that church will always be my priority and of course there is also another group of believer who believe that as a Student we are also called to carry out our responsibility as a Student since we had called by God to be in Campus.

Since that was mere argument as to Church or Class I of course religiously believe Church should always be our main called since we are Christian and there is no reason better than to be in Church getting our spiritual food, meeting others needs in fellowship and remembering our Lord Jesus..

Mmm...Jurisprudential point...it will be a never ending debate. In practicality I have choosen to make the best out of both world. I attend the morning KK service, fellowship before 9:30 and attend Class. Nevertheless I also see the need to be in church as we are mere weak people who needed God and one another for our strenghtening of faith.

Having stated that, I believe in my core system and was advice to remember to carry my Cross Daily and not only a Sunday Christian Like what Joshua Harris Said Stop

Dating your Church

Anyway, I'm open to input, encouragement and Burt in his Sermon says...we as Christian should allow Joseph in our life. People to speak the honest truth that you might not like it. But if it is the truth that we are to learn we shall not reject it.

The Fool reject knowledge right? So I'm definately struggling about the need to be in Church and the need to attend Class. What you have in mind?

I don't Know

I've started my reading on Jurisprudence and all I can conclude is....nothing really make sence when too many opinions is given at one point. ( Can you even able to understand my sentence? )

That is how Jurisprudence is. Mr Amerjit describe Juris as a branch of Philosophy and it is up to your imagination on what you think it is. One of the most infamous quote is

What is Law ?

Many believe it originates by the devine Power of God but some believe it is the invention of Man to supressing the Woman ( as such we have the

feminist

)...and some believe it is only for the upper Class of people who is in the Ivory Tower (

The Nazi

)..and we, the lower class of people have no say on it.

So what is law exactly? I don't know, we can write a book on it and I can't have a conclussion for that. hm...interesting huh? Those who like to day dream it is good for you...if you have imsomnia try reading it...you'll find answer for your sleepless nite.

I'm gonna enjoy my Law of Conflicts Tomorow....

Please wake me up for Class...

Every Beginning Will End at its Proper Timing

Yup!~ Holiday has comes to its end and I'm getting ready for the next 7months and that's it. Can't believe that I have been studying for the last 3 and 1/2 years. I'll be missing my college life and start another stage in the legal field in real time.

So lets see..Since I have reap what I sow last year, I'm gonna work 10 times harder this year for my Finals. Sad to say I did not do very well for my Part one, I have no choice to do all possible for Part 2 or else I'm gonna end my degree with much regrets.

As much as I do not want to be a mediocre student, I have nothing much to say about my Part 1 result. I'm definately grateful that I don't have to repeat a year yet very dissapointed with myself for such a misserable result. Anyway, as a Disciple dissappointment will not bring any good nor able to change any facts. So 7 months to remedy my Degree with God's help everything would be possibble.

I have decided to stay in ATC and will register my subject this Saturday. Juris, Company, Succession and Conflicts. You might wonder why I take the Odd subjects like what I have dictate I have no choice at least for now. Prayerfully those subjects can make some sence while I'm studying it.

So a new beginning this year and I want to make my resolution come true. A new spirit and with new attitude.

Nothing ventured, nothinggained!!

RESULTS

Dear All,

Thanks for all the SMS of concerned. Just got update from Mr Adrian on Wednesday that the result has been delayed by Lembaga Peperiksaan

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/LegalCoach/message/588

Ya, it will be another week to wait for result. But I have the feeling that it will only be available after the Merdeka break. Anyway, calm down enjoy 1 more week before we tears for happiness and sadness. I'll keep everyone in prayer and do keep me in your prayers too.

I'm leaving to Johor tonite so at least I don't have to face reality for a while, will be spending great time with my family for a short break. Hopefully can share the gospel to them...pray also for courage and Love, Like what Daniel shared Deeds without Love would be nothing...

So tonite my bus will depart at 1930 hours local time and arriving at 2330 hours hopefully. Will have a real good rest tonite and go ronda-ronda tomorrow. So Cheers everyone, May God bless your result.

Oh ya, by the way what subject are guys taking next semester? If I passed all my papers, I'll be doing Intelectual Properties, Family Law, Company Law and Jurisprudence. Those who need my Evidence notes I'm selling at RM100 per assignment hehehehe....oklah...discount discount...buy me lunch...dinner oso don't mind....

So bye for the weekends...please sms me if you guys received any updates k..

Adios!

Eve

I SURRENDER ALL

Just some updates about my holiday thus far. I belief this year is the most fruitful Holiday I ever had. Since most of the time of the year I was bog up with studies, studies, and studies, work and study, and study and work...I'll indulge my self in the 3 months holiday to do everything I want which I was not able to do during the rest of the year.

Can you believe it? I have'nt even watch any of the series of "The Lord of The Rings", no Spiderman, no Davinci Code and you name it all the latest movie in the Cinema.. and ironically I did'nt even had a chance to watch that during the holiday...( Ji Wei :- Thanks for the book, I hope I can finish reading it ASAP )

Sometimes I felt I'm loosing touch with the world, so like many of the smart and yet not too smart people I'll ask them for the latest and most updated news...and I'll always seems to know alot yet very little conviction..

So year past by without much knowledge of what is happening around ( You can call me ignorant ) and every year I'll make the same pledge to God that If I pass my exam I'll work real hard for him and shine in my studies...Yet years passing by forgetting what I say...

mmm....integrity...Yes...taking up responsibility and have integrity. Result is coming out in real time and I'll have to face another level of stress for 2 weeks...anxious and very anxious...

The ATC's student were extremely anxious, I have been receiving sms, emails, MSN and snail mail about the up comming results....the level of stress waiting for results was like having to wait for an operation in the Operation room there is only a chances of 50% survival...depending on the doctor who operates you...Oh God I pray that the examiner have mercy on me...

Not that I can't face failure in life, but the failure causes too much of hassle... re-studying, re-taking, money spending, time consuming, phobia, stress, pimples...ah...Killing my cells...and soon after that I'll expose to Permative Vegetative state ( PVS ) and brain damage...

ok Pray Pray...Grace piece of advice ( Jeremiah 29:11 :- For God has a plan for you )
So even my plan were not his plan...I surender...Pray Pray...Dennon say ( Whatever will come will come...be surrender...)...ok ok pray pray...Honey said "I'll pray hard 4 ur surrender heart..ok ok pray pray...Shiau Fong said...I understand how you felt...

hm... "Surrender" dictionary defination

To relinquish possession or control of to another because of demand or compulsion.
To give up in favor of another.

Wow.. To relinquish possession...I suppose I have misplaced my priority again....Lets make it a deal I'll surender all for the sake of his glory and righteousness and whatever it is I'll Surender...God works for the best for those who love him..

2 more weeks holiday and I'm re-charge for my final semester and when I graduate I'll look back with no regrets..whatever in go through in my life as a student may it be an encouragement for those who are facing the things I face...Afterall it was a wonderfull process..( Failure and Victory comes Hand in Hand )

So for now...Enjoy!!

May God Bless for those who had work hard. All the Best for Results..Also for those who are taking ACCA ( Shan and Geok San )

Love,
ME

For my Honey Roger

Don't Day Dream, but make those dreams come true....This are the words spoken to me when he read my blog.

But my day dream no longer a dream, it has been a reality and it was true. I'm still feeling like I'm in a dream land. I'm still so so in Love with you, I can't express in words but I can only tell you that I started to miss you every moment in a Day.

Thank you for being my bestfriend when I needed someone to talk to. Being my companion when I need to go through tough time in life and being an angel who continously encouraging me when I'm down. Your assurance make me felt so Loved and blessed by God. You trully have been a treasure for me.

Honey, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Thank you for allowing me to have sometime with you during our date. I'm grateful for those short moment and I'm willing to be your best of friend at all times. I belief in you and I know God will make great things happens in this friendship.

I'm definately excited to walk this journey with you. I pray that God will blessed all your beutiful dreams for him. Hope you have been encouraged by this friendship we had.

I Love you! Happy Blessed Birthday

HE LOVE YOU. DO YOU KNOW HIM

13/3/2003 - 8.30pm : Palm Court Swimming Pool

That marks another year of victory for me and my Father in heaven.

I am no longer an infant and I shall eat solid food. Yes, that's right! Whatever that has been passed or to be pass will soon passed away.

As I was having some thinking time, reflecting my Christian life I thought about the last bible study I had before I bom the entire study. In a way it was the toughest thing to do at that time. I was considering about all the things that I'm giving up for something we now called " Faith "

Who in the world will be able to give you the assurance that life will be better after making that decision? Giving up on a 4-years relationship, family persecution, friends who think you are weird or I called it extreme at that time and Education that cause a hole in your pocket.

Who in the world will be thinking for you? As I am reflecting, I called it a dream that has passed. God has made his scripture alive in a sence I don't even remembers those struggles anymore. I'm pretty happy as a person and as a disciple, I have no regrets for stepping out from the boat as Peter did in the bible...

Is Christian life that great if you ask me? I would proudly say yes! I have a master that rulled the entire atmosphere. Do I struggle ? Yes, all the more I face and all the more to come. Have I been discouraged by the disciple? Yes, as much as I discourage them I received the same reflections...

So what's the different someone ask me? Because of Love....

*** CAMPUS SERVICE BY VINCENT SIM ON 26 AUG 2006 ***
Event: Campus Service

Date: 26th August 2006

Time: Saturday, 3:00PM

It Feels Like Love

There are many times in my life I ask what does Love really means. It will be a debatable topic if I'm gonna ask the law student. They'll defined it from all sources they can get...so no point asking them :) For me...Love feels like this....

It feels like writting down every single moment you fall into it. Like journaling your feelings and emotion. mm..not exactly...it is more than that, it feels like being around with the person you in love with day and nite yet you dont feel bored about it...mm right it is still more than that...you seek for the one who can communicate and love you as you are and not who you will be....

Yet there is more than that...you want to hold his hand and feel secure that he'll protect you nomatter what happens arounds you. You want to look into his eyes and knowing that he thinks you are beautiful in your very own way...and be confidence of your self...

So Does your love defination same as mine?

For me It does feels like that...but it is still more than that. More than just a feelings or mere emotions. Since God created also the truth in us...Love must reflect selflessness, sacrifice and deeds and honouring the person above your selfish desire. Protecting each other and growing together towards the same dream of loving God.

So if you feels that you are in Love like I do :) or about to be trust me, nothing to be fear of.. do not hold back but sit back and relax...Above all things pray to God and let him handle while we focus on what is right...what is pure...what is praise worthy...think of such things :)

Deuteronomy 7:9

Know, recognize, and understand therefore that the Lord your God, He is God, the faithful God, Who keeps covenant and steadfast love and mercy with those who love Him and keep His commandments, to a thousand generations,

Deuteronomy 7:12

and if you hearken to these precepts and keep and do them, the Lord your God will keep with you the covenant and the steadfast love which He swore to your fathers.

Deuteronomy 7:13
And He will love you, bless you, and multiply you; He will also bless the fruit of your body and the fruit of your land, your grain, your new wine, and your oil, the increase of your cattle and the young of your flock in the land which He swore to your fathers



TO BE CONTINUE....

Love is in the Air

How Great is Thee Who Lead My life

Finally I got sometime alone with Abba yesterday. I have no idea how to do to make it special. I remembered I love going to Starbucks during my young Christian days and draw pictures of me sitting at the coffee table and Abba was sitting in front with me while doing my QT.

I was then staying at Palm Court sisters house, I walk to the pool late that nite and continue drawing pictures of me praying at the place where I got baptise. Thinking of those moment was just so so encouraging. Nowadays, life and faith no longer that simple. Many circumstances has change my view about life and how things should be. Do you feel that way?

Hm...anyway yesterday I went to KLCC for a jog and decide to look for a spot to pray. I sat by the grass near the bridge facing the fountain and I started to pray like never before. I felt really gratefull lately about what have God been doing in my life. From My Mum bible study to frienship in the Kingdom and I felt I have grown so much from my simple faith of just sitting at the coffee table drawing children pictures.

Days continue to be counted and I just have to let go whatever had happen in the pass and look forward what is coming. Getting my self ready also to face more challenges to come and many more great promises from God.

So after the long prayer I walk to the station and get home for shower. Amazingly I'm the only one at home last nite. I was just so tempted to watch TV so I switch it on and while I'm watching the news...my mind wonders off about my schedule and things for the weekend. Thus, I decided to turn it off and get into my room for my bible study.

While reading the book of Corinthians for next Wed. My eye became weary and mentally switching off. So tired...Suddenly my handphone rang and it was a miss call. I look at it was Irene...I gave her a miss call and she called me back...I laugh at her and say..play play ah you miss call me. and we chat for a while.

After that I continue reading and I came accross this verse for a second time

Proverbs 15:30

A cheerful look brings joy to the heart, and good news gives health to the bones.

That is so true I thought to myself....I pray that I can continue to bring joy to many of you and do continue to share good news so that we are able to give glory to ABBA.

Can't wait for weekends, going Putrajaya with Grace, Single Class, Hannah's birthday, GTG class, Spent time with Wai Yee, Sunday service, Doulos etc etc...

I soon dooz off.....ZZZZZZzzzzzzzz

Sweet Dream Ah Bee....

It's Friday

It has been quite a while I was thinking what to blog. Somehow there is nothing so inspiring happen this week. While I'm on my way to work today I realise I'm on my daily routine but one thing for sure I'm so happy that it is Friday. So I can break my daily routine when it comes to Saturday.

Like usuall I drag myself out from the bed sitting at the edge of my bed, swiching off the fan look at the clock and tell myself get up in 5 min. Ya, I have'nt got up so I prayed in my dream, God thank you for this morning bla bla bla..can't even remember my prayer and 5 min is up.

Take my clothes, my towel and walk to the bathroom switch on the light and get prepared to work. Walk out from my house and continue another routine day... say hi to the bus uncle and meet the same faces waiting for bus this morning, meet Farah and Mrs Leong and listen to my favourite DJ Rudy and JJ on Hitz FM.

Since I always sat at the back I can wonder off my morning before I reach office. Looking out the window and everything just was so in place, I met the aunty who sell the news paper ( I wonder how much she make everyday), right at 8:15 Rudi and JJ will make a prank calls to someone and there you have it my daily routine.

Since it is just 1/2 a day pass I shall spice up my day tonite. Go hang out with the sisters celebrating Rachael's birthday. Somehow friendship is always a wonderful treasure.

So those who are working today, do work real hard k. Will see you guys during the weekend.

tk! Peace :)

They are Just so Adorable

Ryan & Tyler



The Boys ( Tai Ko, Tyler, and Ryan )



Tai So and Ryan

A Walk with Thee

After a month back in KL, things has not been the same anymore. While I look at my watch daily I know that I'm running out of time as I promised to use it wisely thus, I hope I'm able to take every minutes count. I mean doing everything before my final year classes start.

Thus, when someone missuse my time, being late for appointment, even take it for granted. I'll lost control and freak out.Oh God how can this people so so irresponsible and then I get all things mess up in my schedule. Somehow, this is my personal character, even if I am not running out of time I am just so so struggle when someone is late for appointment. People advice me to be flexible, Flexible? Why should I? When it is their responsibility to respect my time.

Little that I know I have again forgotten my time is not mine. It is Thee and I shall learn from him. Little that I know I have been a grumblers as well as what Vincent shared in the Leaders Meeting yesterday. Though I might not express it but you can tell it ( smack on on my face ).

Jesus! What am I doing? What shall I do? How can I do it? Please pray for me while I'm learning to make sure people is not taking my time for granted yet I can still bear with them in situations that I need to be understanding.

Group meet tonite for Quiet Time sharing. Hope we are able to bring out what we felt and help one another to get back the right focus.

Input anyone?

It takes Courage

Have the courage to appear foolish, for the real fools are those who never attempt anything. Have the courage to make mistakes, for they can teach you like nothing else can.

Have the courage to take action. For even though your actions carry the possibility of failure, if you never act then you are certain to fail.

Have the courage to live each day fully, with enthusiasm and a generous spirit. Though there are many problems in this world, there are a whole lot more positive possibilities.

Have the courage to do what is right instead of what is easiest or most convenient. It will earn you the respect of others and, even more importantly, the respect of yourself.

Have the courage to see and accept things for what they are. That will put you in position to make a real difference.

Have the courage to love, to speak your mind, to follow your curiosity and your passions. Have the courage to give of yourself, for the goodness you give will come back to you over and over again.

Diary

In Ipoh life is just so lay back and I'll get all attention I needed without asking and it annoyed me sometimes. In KL is where I'll get back to reality where there is so much responsibility and work to do and thus I need to look at others interest and needs above myself.

Last week Wai Leng shared about priority. I thought I have my priority right yet when the message was shared I got it all wrong and the only one I'm correct was just true in the mind yet was not in the heart.

It really breaks my heart, seeing myself so disorganise in life. As a single God is always our priority and guess what the second priority is not you, is not church, is not evangelism either it was PERSONAL GROWTH.

So if you were as disorganise as I am, lets get back those priority right. If you have been a discipline and organised disciple please come and encourage me and help me.

I'm not complaining don't get me wrong I'm definately excited about what I'm doing right now, sometimes I felt worn out and thus I just want to pour out how I felt so that I will have you to carry my burden together.

I hope life could always be joyful and beutiful, sometimes you want to smile but you might have to sigh. Life is full of bumpers and to get to the destination you just got to motivate your self of what is in front of you.

Exams result is coming out real soon. I just got so worry when the letter arrived, as much as I want to have faith and be surrender, my mind is haunting me about what ever consequences as a result of that.

Hmm....anyway, putting that aside...and continue to do what is right....

I'm out of insights...give me wisdom...

I wish that King Solomon spare me one of his wish and I'll ask for the same...

ACTS 17;24

24"The God who made the world and everything in it is the Lord of heaven and earth and does not live in temples built by hands. 25And he is not served by human hands, as if he needed anything, because he himself gives all men life and breath and everything else. 26From one man he made every nation of men, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he determined the times set for them and the exact places where they should live. 27God did this so that men would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from each one of us. 28'For in him we live and move and have our being.' As some of your own poets have said, 'We are his offspring.'

Greetings from blue bird skies...snow capped mountains and clear green lakes, Whistler, British Columbia !

Is'nt it beautiful...Tai Ko KO (MY BIG BRO) just made a covenant with me today that he'll sponsor me a ticket to visit them on Christmas when I pass all my papers..

He he..can't wait to be there.

Always a Reason 2 Rejoice

Best friend?
I defined them as people who are willing share your joy and tears together and walk you through in your life journey.

"Ecclesiastes 4:9-12"

9Two people can accomplish more than twice as much as one; they get a better return for their labor. 10If one person falls, the other can reach out and help. But people who are alone when they fall are in real trouble. 11And on a cold night, two under the same blanket can gain warmth from each other. But how can one be warm alone? 12A person standing alone can be attacked and defeated, but two can stand back-to-back and conquer.Three are even better, for a triple-braided cord is not easily broken

I was definately encouraged and I am being blessed with this friendship with God's guidance. My human imperfections tells me that I don't deserve it, It is too good to be true. Have you ever felt that way?

I am who I am, I come from a humble background and from a normal pool of people and I don't stand out from the society. One thing I know God has picked me to be his child, his friend and his disciple. As I am playing those role , I felt the same as how it goes I am who I am nothing so special and does not stand out from the crowd of million peoples.

God has been so good to me...that was how the song goes, it gave me strength, security and knowing that he accepted me as who I am. He provides me with the inner spirit that I can bring out the outer strength.

Thanks for the roses my bestfriend, it makes me felt special and stand out as a best friend of yours. I appreciate the time we shared, the fellowship we had, the great times we go through and sad times that you comfort me.

God is definately the source of all senses, that brought our friendship together. Path crosses and thus we met. Thanks for being a real true friend to me, teaching me, encouraging me, discipling me, inspiring me and even share this journey in discouvering God with me.

May this friendship glorified God in everyway.



Love,
Evelyn

One Step At a Time

This few days make me think alot about future. Sometimes it just make me feel so worry about things. Anyway, since I already decided to just trust God and let God decide I guess the only right thing to do is now to be surrender about it. If you ask me whether had I surender, lets see when trials come.

Talking about future, I think everyone are anxious about how's life going to be. I remembered that ZQ used to tell us that we all wants conclusion in everything we do. Therefore, no one goes to the movie if there is no ending to it. There is times there is no ending and thus you would expect a Part 2 for it..

A Brother approach me on our way back from mid week service. " Sis actually want to ask your opinion but it is a bit late" of course not to turn him down I say tell me I'll answer in 5 minutes. Scott is nice enough to wait for me while I'm listening about what this brother had to tell me.

I was asked about marriage. Wow! I thought to myself am I so mature to handle this? He he..no bad at all I can be a counsel now. Anyway serious, he want some opinion from the sisters whether we are open or secure to talk about marriage. Since I'm single and still am but I have convictions that this is a part of everyone's life. Even God said that we are his bride right?

This is not a light topic to talk about, yet it is not heavy either. It takes both party to think about the next step or direction in their life. Just like we decide to follow God, we are not only to take the blessing we are to face the trials as well right?

So, basically he ask me whether it is ok to open up this topic to his girlfriend. For me, it was a great topic to talk about when you are ready to take the responsibility and to assure the other half that you are serious about it. Hm...talking like an expert...hm...:)

Anyway, go slow enjoy, discover, assure, protect most importantly pray that God directs those good intention. Make sure you invite me hoh...

All the best!

Love,
Eve

My Nephew

Choices

5 MAY 2006

Bed....pillow....blanket....Presentation..Christian Fellowship....

Irene called me....Eve sorry not ready....out of Joy I said its ok...I rather go for CF...so self study I meet you on Monday for Mocks.

I'm late, oh my God....9am....1 hour left to brush my teeth, to take bath to dressed up to pack my stuff and run to the LRT station for CF.

You can tell how disorganise I am...yes another bad Saturday morning.

So before I step out I decided to give my mum a call to tell her that I'm going to school and update her bout my week. My dad was busy preparing stuff for his business.

Good good I tell to my self I have encouraged my mum this morning. Rushing, better hurry up I'm very late...

On my way in the LRT, Novel called me to look for a place in Wangsa maju as she was very distracted and depressed at her current place. I gave her number to Ming Hui my college mate as I heard she was looking for a room mate and smssing the two of the them. So I became the middle person of their negotiations. It all happens on my journey to school and Novel decided to move in.

Good good I tell my self I had help another person to get a place to stay.

I reached Pasar seni at 10:50am...so I have another 10 minutes to rush...no I gotta get my coffee..so I decided to stop at Kiosk to get my Favourite Mocha..for a kick start... Still look bit sleepy and unenergize.

Bad things always happen and it always happened to me ;) I have no small change...So I say sorry ah...RM10...the cashier guy look at me and say sorry no change you have smaller note? I was definately irritated by the fact that I'm already late and he is making my life difficult. How I feel? I felt like telling him with my Malanglish " How come Open Business no money change ?"

Thank God I tell my self it was not his fault. Afterall I've been in that position that people tell straight to my face how they are not satisfied bout things. So I decided to appologize for giving him such a big note...but I really need that cofee kind of thing...so he ask Rm1 note for change is it ok? with a smile I said appreciate that if you don't mind.

The cashier finally have no choice to do my business and gave me the change and he appologize by saying " Sorry ye, jangan marah ye " I smile at him and say no problem I understand. It all happened in 5 minutes...

What I've learned? God grace. Yup his Grace, despite my human weakness he gave me a chance, at least a chance to repent, at least a chance to make a different in other persons' life. I left that shop feeling real good by not making his life difficult at least.

So then, I was left with 3 minutes or so to be there in CF. Thank God I make it on time. Today lesson was peserverance, as a Student, as a disciple and a child to our parents ( The unsung Heroes ). Yes I definately needed that.
Passage 2 Timothy 1:7:
7For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.

Passage Hebrews 13:6:
6So we say with confidence,"The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid.
What can man do to me?"[a]

Ephesians 3 :20
20Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us,


em...I thought to myself no bad...not bad at all....

After CF as usuall we take our heavy lunch quote Dominic : One Tone Mee....without Wantan and Char Siew .....iiii....I dont like that at all.....and my 2nd cup of Kopi Thiam Cofee...from uncle Hor Kau....

2pm already...it is time to study study study.....so I went to the library as usuall ;) read my Tort assignment ......

6pm Library close shop, the librarian chase us out and he want to balik rumah...me? of course I would love to stay and finish up the unfinished. ha ha haha you don't trust me? Serious....I rather go lepak with buddy buddy "yum cha" I left for greater, more happening, Grace Cham's Birthday celebration.

Yes! see you at the Curve tonight...

Chau! Adios! God bless!

Wow this was a draft post I wrote 2 months ago during the hectic month of exam. What a memory and great time I had. Hm...I definately misses class and everyone in College, Irene, Judy, Esther, CF, Foo Woei, Dominic and his lame joke and all I could remember the time in British council..hm....so fast I'm now on holiday...changing of life style and stuff...

Miss you guys! take care do keep in touch ya.

Love,
Eve

From Fear To Love

For Those who are in Love, the expression of Love does not seems too difficult to express. But for those who are about to be in Love, there are some area which we fear to express. For those who does not know what is Love, they do not even want to talk about it. And for those who fear to Love can't understand what the Lord's Love is all about. Little that you know the bible is also known as the book of Love.

Ray and Nancy Kane in their book states that

Each of us senses within that we were created to be in relationship with others and not to be left alone. When we love, we are willing to reach out to the lonely and brokenhearted

Thus, we are willing to provide that special touch, word of affirmation, or act of kindness. The Question is why do we fear? The only answer I had is probably we fear of rejection or we experience the pain of rejection so we never want to be involve again. We all need assurance and acceptance from one another. Sometimes it was given deliberately and sometimes it was implied.

When I think of the Theme for the month " Fishers of Men" I questioned my heart do I even love to seek and save the lost. My fear of rejection often stop me from going all the way. I was reading about the criminal who was sentence to death penalty together with Jesus.

One ask Jesus to save himself and the criminal and the other ask for pardon and for Jesus to remember him. Fear can produce 2 kind of result it either make you feel angry and upset when someone does'nt do anything you wish, or you will be so humble to know that you don't deserve the love from others but you can only beg for it.

Hm...cool huh thus, a little insights to ponder about our love for God, his Kingdom the lost and our family. Lets ponder.